Torn...

I'm torn because something big has happened in my life and I want to journal about it, and yet I don't want to make it public business. Last night Wes and I broke up. I initiated it and it was my fault, but in the light of day I really regret that I did it and I can only hope that one day he will forgive me. I don't intend to write about it any more, but at the same time I don't want it to sound as though everything is ok simply because I don't mention it. I still love him more than I can find the words to say and I hope that one day everything will be better.